Bring me back to life.....!!!

I love her too much to let her go.
I love her too much to see her in pain, to see her crying.
I am 'addicted' to her.....
Muskaan, I am in too deep, I have lost my mind, I just wanna hold you........forever and ever......

I can be your hero baby, I can kiss away the pains......I will stand by you forever.....you can take my breath away.......I can be your hero......!!!!!!

Maybe I am addicted and out of control, but you are the only drug that keeps me from dying, maybe I am a liar, but you are the only reason I am trying........!!!!
I am wasted away, I made a million mistakes, am I too late???

I am not afraid of dying, all I am afraid of is losing you......!!!!!

When you came into my life, life suddenly happened to me. I became so engrossed in everything, that I forgot the catalyst behind all my happiness. Everything seemed clear to me, till I hit reality. And I lost it all..........
At this point I understood what part you play day-in day-out in my life and how you redifine my shortcomings with your tireless approach. I undermined your love. It's far too strong to deny or neglect. I am at fault of being the only stupid in this whole goddamn world to look further when I already have "Little Miss Sunshine" in my life......how ridiculous, I am ashamed....!!!

Magic....is what you are capable of. Care and affection, you are blessed with. Nuances of nurturing and harnessing is to learnt from you. I have never ever thought that, apart from my Mom, someone else was capable enough to shower the amount of love and care you bestowed upon me. Truly I think, you rock and I suck...!!!! I have never experienced this amount of dedication and commitment from someone before I chanced upon you, lucky me........!!!!

Go on, go on, leave me breathless......!!!!!!

Sorry..Blame it on me!!!!

Take everything from the inside and throw it all away, coz I swear for the last time I will never break her trust again. She doesn't deserve it. My life , my pride is broken. She loves the way I look at her while taking pleasure in the awful things I put her through. I like to think I am never wrong, why do I always have to act like I am someone? I want to share what I have been through. I live what I have learnt. I will hurt myself just to get back to her, to win her over again. Because I have realized one thing, without her i am incomplete. She supplements me, she compliments me, she redefines me, she polishes me into a human being. I forfeit the game, before somebody else takes me out of the frame. Before someone put my name to shame, I need to cover up my face. I need to dig deep and rediscover myself. What have I become?

I have arguably the best girl, the best friend, the best lover, the best life partner I could ever dream of, and here I am. Dishonoring and disgusting her off. Sometimes I am so pissed off with myself. Sometimes illusions are not so simple. I know, the sun will set for me one-day, and the shadow of the day will embrace me. She doesn't deserve any of this. Sorry......is all I can say...!!!

But remember this Muskaan, Nothing's gonna change my Love for you and that you will always be the Queen of my heart.....Please don't let me fall...!!!!!
I know I don't deserve heaven's garden, but I can at-least make sure that I can visit you there sometimes.....!!!!
I can be your Hero, baby...!!!!!

As life goes on, I am starting to learn more and more about responsibility. I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me. So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done. I am sorry for the times I would neglect you, disrespect you. I am sorry for the fact that I was not aware, that you can't sleep at night when I am not there. Sorry for the things that I did not say, like how you are the best thing in my world and how i am so proud to call you my girl...........!!!!

I understand there are some problems and I am not too blind to know. All the pain you kept inside, even though you might not show. If I can't apologize for being wrong, then its just a shame on me. I will be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me.....!!!!!!!

Love you unconditionally.
Sorry...Blame it on me.....!!!!!!!